Why I Set Up a Blog

I’ve been thinking recently about why I’m doing this, and what I want to achieve. It probably seems a bit weird to randomly set up a blog and share personal things on the internet for strangers to read. It is a bit odd, actually, when you think about it - isn’t it? Why would someone set up a blog?

I’m quite an impulsive person. I have a diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder, one of the key symptoms of which is impulsivity. I’m undergoing an ADHD diagnosis, a condition again known for impulsivity. 

I’m a risk taker - in a safe environment, where there’s an opportunity for growth or having fun, I like to dive straight in. I would rather throw myself into something and learn along the way, than hold off and ensure all risks have been mitigated in advance. I really don’t think this is a bad thing though. I mentioned it in a recent blog post, but I was raised in an environment where I was made to believe that, if I really tried, I could conquer the world. This has given me the confidence to try new things and learn from my mistakes. 

All that to say, when I have an idea I generally just give it a go.

I describe myself as a bit of a country-hippy-emo-chav. It’s certainly a unique mix. However, if I lean into the hippy side a little, and try a bit of manifestation, I’m going to tell you my dream. When I think of my future, I think of two parts: the corporate career, and the quiet country life. 

The Country Life

I’ll keep this brief as it’s not the main focus here. However, I want land. Lots, and lots, of land. I would love to build a large equestrian centre, a place where horses receive species-appropriate care, with their mental and physical needs catered to. I want to be surrounded by beautiful animals in my own piece of paradise. I’m sure I’ll delve more into this as I progress with the move. 

The Corporate Career

This is the bit that’s slightly more relevant here. I want a career I can love, where I wake up each morning wanting to go to work. I want to make a difference in the world and leave it a little better than it was before. I’ve got a very busy brain and like to be kept busy. I don’t quite feel like I fit into the corporate world though, like I’m too square to fit through their round hole. 

For two years, I was privileged to Chair a disability inclusion network. As a disabled and neurodiverse woman, this was my first step in realising there is a space for people like me. Suddenly, I was the expert in the room and people wanted to hear what I had to say. People were wanting to hear my thoughts on all things disability. This is not a responsibility I took lightly - I wanted to ensure that the trust placed in me was not misguided. I wanted to use my tenure to make a difference - for people like me, but more importantly for those not like me. This really sparked my love for Diversity, Equity, and Inclusion. Realising the difference I could make by embracing the things that make me unique was ground-breaking to me. I spent every minute learning about all things disability and neurodiversity. This is what made me recognise my own challenges, and seek a diagnosis for ADHD and Autism to get the support I need. 

When I think about what I want to do when I grow up, I would love to have a career as a public speaker. I would love to share my experiences with people, aiding organisations in becoming more inclusive, and helping individuals realise they are not alone. I want to advocate for the more vulnerable members of society, the people who haven’t yet found their voice. I want to do something where I can make a difference.

So, that’s why I want to do this. That’s why I’m screaming my deepest thoughts into the void. I’m doing it in the hopes that I can reach one person who maybe needs it, spreading awareness and a little positivity.